It probably is.

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Or in my case, it could be nefarious. Throughout my years of awakening, I never heard or paid attention to any contests which measured the extrasensory gifts of a person. Call it selective hearing or reading or lack of consciousness, it was only this year I was introduced to my first contest where the prize money totals one million dollars. I am one of the finalists who have a one out of four chance to win not only one million, but one point five million as the prize money went up.

That contest I aligned with. It resonated with me. It felt good. It felt light.

Yesterday, I was introduced to another…

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The times we live in are strange, aren’t they? Rage, anger, masks, missiles, vaccinations, genocide, sadness, depression, social distancing, hope with fear; the list goes on.

Every day is a day to cherish what we have, last year a forced reflection for many, if not all. Most people have drowned the sea of uncertainty while some have not only floated but cruised. Why?

Is it luck? Oh goodness, no. Luck has nothing to do with how prepared you are in times of uncertainty. Either you have prepared or you haven’t. …

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What you focus your attention and energy on will manifest into a life of its own. Shouldn’t it be easy when someone tells you to focus your attention on what you have versus what you don’t have? It’s always easier said than done.

Sometimes our cells are wound up so tight, there’s no room to breathe, let alone have grace and gratitude for the breath we take. The strain and pain felt from the have nots supersede the small amounts of our haves, which ultimately make us yearn for more.

It is in the yearning that we suffer so much…

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I stood in front of the Santo Spirito neighborhood cafe in majestic Florence, Italy one morning in 2016. Where two Italians stood behind me to yell their coffee orders first. Their orders vibrated in the air through my soul to the worker behind the bar. He made their coffees first, then turned his body, sans eyes to me as I whimpered my espresso order in English in Florence, Italy.

That was the day I decided to learn Italian so I wouldn’t be run over by the locals. The second reinforcement to learn the language was after the fifteenth taxi gave…

Has been increased to a million and a half

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It’s been seven days since BICS, The Bigelow Institute for Consciousness Studies, sent out the approval emails to the qualified candidates. It’s been two days since we received our second email announcing they’ve upped the ante. From a million dollars for the prize money to one million and a half dollars.

Congratulations, your application to submit an essay for the BICS Essay competition was approved! We have an exciting new announcement for you. …

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It’s taken me all but thirty-nine years to get here. Amid a worldwide shutdown, semi mandatory vaccines, and the collective’s emotions rolling from wave to wave, I’m ready to consciously conceive.

Consciously conceiving to me means that you are aware of your intergenerational traumas and behaviorisms. You have worked on releasing and breaking the patterns in your family’s karmic lineage. Or you are currently working on releasing and breaking the patterns because healing is not linear. You are making a conscious choice to be aware of your emotional patterns that can and will affect your child’s mental, spiritual, and emotional health. And above all else, doing something about it.

I’ve had options in my life to become a mother with ex-partners who would have been great fathers. Yet, it didn’t always feel right. Even though there was a lot of love from both sides. Last year I received two love offerings from text messages to phone calls of, ‘I am ready to be with you. I will sell my business and we will travel the world together!’ from…

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Do you guys remember the time when yelpers demanded free food in exchange for yelp reviews? Yeah, thank goodness the companies and restaurants started standing up for themselves.

I scan a lot of reviews before buying products or ordering services. I do this to see the common denominator in service and quality. I also believe having negative reviews is crucial in understanding the perception of the reviewers versus determining if the product and services are as good as the five star reviews. New profiles equal family and friends, I know, I know.

But recently, I wondered about the negative reviews…

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Ouija boards are making a comeback. In 2020. As if we needed any more portals opening up to release the Kraken.

Just kidding, the krakens are already here in human form.

When certificate shamans became a thing in Los Angeles along with Ayahuasca ceremonies, I blessed our future and continued to pray. Knowing what I know, seeing what I’ve seen, and feeling what I’ve felt through different parallel dimensions, the Ouija trend has got me shaking my head.

One of the reasons people find me is to help assist with malevolent spirits and to close up portals. As with our…

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Some people have called me a little OCD and that was putting it nicely. December used to be my favorite month not because of Christmas and the chill Southern California air, no. It was because I loved going to the store to pick out next year’s organizer.

Colored post its, tri-colored pens, that was my jam. I am not as excessive as I used to be, yet my iPhone calendar is of course colored-coded, as well as my journal with a multitude of colored highlights. Also, my home and heart are filled with lists. Lots and lots of lists.


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To ascend, one must let go. You must let go of fear, obligation, shame, guilt, sadness, anger. Let go of the simmering emotions which boil over periodically.

You must let go.

Many are looking to ascend right now. Their minds float in the sky as their feet lift off the ground. Rooted in never, neverland. Oblivious to the hard work of releasement of all things holding them back.

A hot air balloon of self, heated from within, rising, tethered to the ground. Tethered by their fear, sadness, anger, and guilt. Anchored in deep, with no one but themselves to blame.

They blast more flame to heat the air directly, rising, rising, more, more.

All the while, attached to their experiences, beliefs, limiting beliefs, misperceptions, and perceptions of their existence.

Before lifting off the ground, do the work. Unhook the fear. Dive into the abyss of sadness to detach. Free yourself from the shame, liberate yourself from your anger.

When you do…

Carol Dao

I write about practical spirituality and things that go bump in the night. Buy my latest eBook: When She Remembered

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